Monday, August 23, 2010

A Matter Of Trust

I’m pondering the next two days.

This week I am covering for one of the other field supervisors that I work with. He is on vacation and I am working his shifts. In return I am not working on a truck this week. It’s a fair trade; I get to sleep in my own bed one more night this week than I normally would. On the other hand, I’m hopeful that we have no activity in town tonight or tomorrow could be really difficult.

I’ve been thinking over the past couple of days about a question. It’s a simple one: why do people sometimes feel the need to not tell a whole truth? Is it out of fear? Or is it a pathological thing? I don’t know what the answer is, but I ran into it this past weekend. I won’t get into details, but suffice it to say my trust was violated by another person. It really, truly didn’t make me happy, and at the moment I really can’t do anything about it.

Because of this I now have a problem: I have to ensure I don’t get blind-sided by something like this again. But I have other people to consider, and this is clearly a case of the “10/90” phenomenon rearing its head and looking in my direction.

It is funny how words can be taken out of context and misunderstood. It happens sometimes. That said, it’s still hard for me to deal with the idea of a person being “thrown under the bus” by an individual who doesn’t have the common sense to first understand that when they ask a question they need to understand exactly what they are asking, and then to not do something that could potentially cause trouble.

I am aware that the above paragraph sounds rather cryptic. But I really don’t know how else to say what is bothering me most. It just blows me away that words can be twisted in ways that I simply don’t understand. And I’m not happy with the situation that is in front of me.

So I will do my best to deal with it. Hopefully at some point I can write plainly about this, but I can’t do it now. If I do it could cause some serious difficulties for me.

So I will wait.

1 comment:

Karen Brook said...

Walt, I can SO relate x 100 at least. And I have several theories. Next to God, I believe you're the busiest person I know but I really hope sometime that hypothetical "really big cup of coffee" together can actually become a reality. Perhaps a time to meet and get caught up at Barnes & Noble in Manchester (they have coffee there, right?) or any place of your choosing. Fret not my friend. Life's too short. I sometimes see these things as odd blessings because at least I know in what ways to be careful and watchful for in some people when they reveal these things about themselves to me. Because, as you know, it's all about them.