As I write this I am dealing with an incredible amount of frustration.
I got my grade back from the lab practical we took this past Friday night, and I tanked it. The grade was bad enough, in fact, that it took my weighted class average down over 6 points.
Realizing that we still have 3 written exams and the final, plus one other lab practical, in the big picture this shouldn’t be a deal breaker. Or should it?
The problem with this lab exam that really trashed me was the histology and cytology stuff – much more of it than anyone expected. More than half of the exam, in fact, consisted of cell and tissue samples that had to be identified. For me, this was the most difficult thing we’d done because of my vision; without having to really make adjustments to the microscope settings I had trouble identifying most of the samples. And we were not allowed to make changes to the magnification.
I had such a hard time, in fact, that I mis-identified more than half of the samples that were presented. Plus, I made a couple of really stupid mistakes on other things that I have no excuse for. So I am really mostly angry at myself.
I really hope I can fix this over the course of the rest of the semester; if I can’t, then I’m going to have some serious trouble in front of me.
And I expected to do so much better in this class than what I’m doing. After all, I have really good practical knowledge of the human body; I have to as I deal with it every time I go to work. But this is killing my confidence. And it’s so stupid that this is happening.
Martha thinks I have a case for ADA accommodation. I don’t. In fact, I believe that if I file a grievance over this, it will get thrown back in my face and the school will support their instructor. After all, the argument they’ll use is that I’m not the only one with restricted vision; the instructor wears glasses as do 4 or 5 other people in the class. And I don’t think they had the same problems with the slides than I did. I believe I’ll be told that I didn’t study enough.
I’ll turn the whine mode off now.